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It was just this point in my life when I was getting too cynical about a lot of stuff. I was getting too hopeless about everything unable to understand what is this life all about. I was kind of living too mechanically, just passing each day with same monotonous schedule. Seeing my seniors struggling for jobs got me all the more apprehensive in my final year. The futility of everyday monotonous schedule had got me too depressed. I had a horrible feeling of living a life even less than that of a mediocre. It was then that I got my hands on this book "An Unsuitable Boy", an autobiography by Karan Johar. This book has not only helped me get a better hold on life but also made me full of thoughts, the thoughts worth being penned down and preserved. There is a very famous saying: "LIFE IS WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU WHILE YOU'RE BUSY MAKING OTHER PLANS". My belief in this saying has just been strengthened. I strongly believe there is some Universal Energy driving all the eve...

Do pal ruk ja ae zindgi Thoda jee bhi le Baith aaj mere paas Mujhe khud se aaj milne toh dey Kar le aaj thodi si fursat Mai hu kaun mujhe apni pehchan toh krne dey Bhaag lia ab bhut, thodi rahat toh pa ley Kissey itna bhag rahi hai aaj bas itna bata dey Kal hui jo galti unse kabhi dur mat bhagna Apna lena wo galti wo hi dikhaegi ab sahi rasta Milegi ek din tujhe kamyabi  par uske peeche mat bhagna Agar apne hi bichad gaye is daud mei Toh kaha paegi sukoon ghar lautne ka. Hogey tere sapne purey Bas bikhre hue sapno se mat ghabrana Wo junoon jo shayad tab kam reh gya tha Tute sapno ke dard mei usey dhund lena Raat jitni ghani hoti jaegi apne dar ko apnane se mat ghabrana Dar ko pehchan, ussey dosti kar aur jab wo behek jaye us par fateh pa lena. Tu ghayal hogi, larkharaegi, giregi par fir uth jana Us pal mei bas thodi der tham jana Bikhre hue palo mei khoye hue astitva ko dhundna Khud ko samet kar naye hosle se aagey badna Ladai mei tu khud ko mat kho baithna Manzil tak pahuchte pahu...

Ok!! Let's begin to write about something. Umm!! About what? Even though this world is full of unresolved mysteries, misunderstood psychologies, failed relationships waiting to be counselled, depressed individuals in a desperate need of a moral boost, why do I still feel short of topics to write about. Alright. So we can write some other day. No. Today, at this very moment. It is this moment where I fell this insatiable hunger, unquenched thirst and the sight of that fully loaded pen wanting to bleed makes me so desperate that I might drown if words don't save me today. Ok!! Then write but don't get so dramatic. Keep it simple and straight. Have you never heard nature's musings in the morning. The sweet bird chirping, crunchy crackling sound of leaves, the night's secrets whispered by the breeze, the shrieking of waves ready to engulf everything that is anything but rock strong. Have you not noticed how they combine in a perfect harmony to create the most melodious ...

It was a strangely pleasant and cool day. After days of scorching sun, Gods had finally decided to do a favour to humans. Weather today felt like a kiss of summer without the fiery heat of noon. It was this breezy day with light drizzle that got me too tempted to take an off from my otherwise monotonous schedule to be there in the laps of nature. Being a completely restless girl I always face a very hard time in blocking away the useless thoughts that keep invading my mimd without invitation. And so I had taken my earphones along and just something inside me told me to play the songs that I had listened to on a repeat mode to the point of oversaturation, some 4 years back. Whoa!! Who knew these songs will get me transported instantaneously back to those times, to that place and to be with friends back then. The fresh earthy smell emanating from grass unleashed a floodgate of forgotten memories. The wind today seemed to blow the fragrance of those times. The birds, trees, drizzles all o...

Thanks to the 5 days exam break....got to write after so long....very rarely I scribble something in hindi and this is just one of those rare moments when something gloomy filled my heart...probably it was just exam stress showing up and all I needed was a dose of motivation and I really believe you yourself can be your best motivator and the reason is simple: no one has walked in your shoes and no one knows your struggles as personally as you do....the key lies in reading, learning and knowing from other people's struggle and then implement their teachings in your life in a way that it suits you the best. Waqt wo aaj bhi zinda sa lagta hai, Sab cheen lia tha jis waqt ne aaj wo hi apni pehchan lagta hai. "Bhul ja wo sab, wo waqt hi tera na tha" Fir kyu uska saya har pal sath chalta hai. Kitne hi jhut kyu na bol le khud se, Kitne hi bahane kyu na bana ley, Sach toh wahi khada hai aur yehi kehta hai, Aaj teri ye pehchan us waqt ka hi tofa hai. Ye tofa kabhi kabhi bhut khubs...

It's been quiet a while and India still can't stop chattering about the election of the saffron-robed head of the Gorakhnath Temple, Yogi Adityanath, as Chief Minister of India's biggest state. And why should people stop talking about it when he is giving ample controversial issues to the nation; one of which that has severely curbed the basic freedom of young couples and youth of U.P. Yes it's about this anti romeo squad. A squad that has been formed in all the police stations that will pick up "romeos" (a supposedly subtle term devised by U.P. Government for men harrasing, eve teasing women) who are loitering around such places like colleges and coffee shops. And this move is supposed to serve two big motives- firstly, prevent eve teasing and harassment of girls and secondly reclaim public spaces for women. Kudos to the motive behind this move but implementation of the move??. Well that's the controversy U.P. is fighting currently. So Mr. Adityanath I re...

CONGRATULATIONS. Congratulations for making it this far when the world out there did it's part of pulling you down, criticising your freedom, blaming your clothes, judging you by the number of your guy friends and all this while you stood there confident, unmoved and STRONG. I want you to know girl that you are beautiful. Beautiful not really externally but something that's even more more greater, that's your integrity. Kudos to those dark eyes for perfectly concealing all the injustice done on them by the patriarchal society that curbed your basic human rights and shamed you regularly for being the rebel. Yet those eyes still hold that fire within that can burn anyone who holds back your basic rights to freedom. Applauds to that mind that has allowed chaos and peace to coexist despite all the mental pressure that social stigmas raised. This mind still holds the strength to stand in its own decision and not follow the crowd or allow anyone to govern your lifestyle. Cheers t...

When the world of illusion surrounds, When in the pool of tears you begin to drown, When butchered trust causes you to build an emotional wall, When the thought of moving on begins to weigh you down. When dreams, goals and hope all seems dead, In the darkness when you begin to dread, Where the hatred, deceit and injustice begins to spread When the most honest souls begin to bled. When your own guilt starts to overdose, And fear begins knocking at your doors, When you feel yourself as personifying failure, When a malformed you collapse to be reduced to state of weeper and wailer. Remember then, Oh sweet souls, With the new morn, you will be reborn. Reborn to embrace your regrets, Reborn so you can forgive yourself. Reborn to accept and tell yourself "Yes I am my mistakes", Reborn with the maturity that your bad decisions gave. Reborn in the suffocation of hatred and gossips, Reborn to create a new identity for yourself amidst all this. Reborn to finally let it all go, Reborn w...

TIME- 1:00 A.M. ME- Trying to sleep but my distracted, perturbed mind refuses to stay at peace. Finally I open up my laptop. ROOMMATE- making your project? ME- Nope. Time to upload a blog. ROOMMATE - It’s 1 A.M. Is it that necessary. Yeah. It is necessary darling. The hurricane of thoughts that have been started in my mind after watching Kaabil won’t settle down and won’t let me sleep till I vomit it all out in the most ferocious way , the intensity reflecting the deep emotional disturbances that I am fighting at present.   Well here is how the most insensitive part of the movie goes- The woman in the lead is raped and she commits suicide leaving suicide note saying   “mere sath jo hua wo mai le sakti hu lekin tumhe tutte hue nhi dekh sakti”  showing how even an independent, educated  woman like her can blame herself for the assault on her. Like seriously? You actually want to sell this in 2017?  Well I certainly believe that art and c...